I was writing this to post on a group site, and I realized that it is the first time I've really written it down like this. Of course this is the "nutshell" version, but it hit me how much of a fairy tale it sounds like. For the first time in my life, I have to admit that I LOVE MY LIFE!
Jay and I met almost 10 years ago. He was going to a really big church in our hometown. They did a christmas play and brought in ballet dancers from one of the major schools in town. Enter me. We feel in love the moment we met, but he had a girlfriend and thought he didn't have a chance in hell with me (wrong!). A year later I participated in the same christmas pagent and he decided to dump his girlfriend. We were together for a few months and then I moved a couple of states away to dance professionally where my feelings for him kind of fizzled (maybe it was the distance, maybe it was my age). For many years he was that proverbial guy who I would complain to about all the losers I was dating. Well, he never gave up on me. Not even when I got married a few years later. We lost touch until about a year ago, which was about the same time I was hit with the mack truck of a realization that my unhappy marriage was never going to get any better, and I was just making my life and my then-husband's life misserable by trying to stick it out. On top of that I was getting this sinking feeling in my stomach that I had made a terrible mistake with Jay. I didn't tell him anything about my feelings until I had made the decision to leave because I didn't want my leaving to be contengent on him wanting to be with me. Well, come to find out he was still head over heels in love with me too. I was "the one that got away", and in August (after 5 1/5 years of being apart) I flew home while he was on leave and we spent the most amazing weekend together. Now we've been together for about 6 months and will be getting married next October. I don't know how I lived without him all those years, and I can't imagine how I could possibly live without him now. He's the most romantic, honorable, caring man I've ever met. And no offense to all you girls :-) but I'm the luckiest girl in the world!